It is good to be back. I had to take a little hiatus from writing on this forum to engage in another very important project. Baby girl number three was born three months ago on April 6th, at home with just me, the hubby and two of her three older siblings.
I attempted to continue reading the book, Fascinating Womanhood and execute the given assignments while posting my findings to this blog. However, by my second trimester that plan hit the back burner.
Like many women, I usually experience waves of emotions throughout my pregnancy and I go up and down in my feelings and resulting demeanor. I always blame it on the hormones! :) With this pregnancy I was very impatient with myself and with people and situations around me. I was not really in a good place to attempt being a fascinating woman, happens to the best of us. I put the book down and stepped away from writing because I did not want to taint the process I had embarked upon. I knew my attitude would change once the baby was born and I would be back to my wonderful self. ;) My little girl is three months old now and I'm back, ready to begin again the process of becoming a fascinating woman, wife and mother. Before I get to the present I am compelled to give a little insight into my recent past.
Another reason I had to step back from the journey of fascinating womanhood (with my husband) was because I went on a journey to give birth, not just have a baby, which I believe is also an aspect of being a "fascinating woman". After having c-sections with all of my other children and being told by my OB that I would have to have yet another one (for no other reason than I had had several already) AND that the surgeons would want to tie my tubes, I completely removed myself from the medical way of doing things and took matters into my own hands. My husband and I studied together and prepared ourselves to deliver our own baby, at home, by ourselves. I was a little nervous about the whole thing but I knew there was no other way if I wanted to have a pleasant birth experience and avoid another surgery. I read everything I could find on the subject and tried my best to take good care of myself physically. To make a nine month long story short, through my faith in God and in myself and having trust in my dear husband, I was successful in delivering a very healthy baby at home. It was my very first natural/normal birth experience and I felt absolutely wonderful about it.
I had my shortest labor and was completely awake and coherent the entire time. My husband was perfect, he was just what I needed him to be right when I needed it.
The experience of giving birth to my daughter has taught and continues to teach me so much about myself, about life and nature and about my husband. It has helped shed new light on the type of man he is and the type of marriage we have. Her birth was a culmination of my faith and determination and a testament to the power of God being alive in the human spirit. It was an experience that I will be able to use forever in my life whenever I have goals I want to achieve or challenges I need to overcome. Now that the smoke has cleared some, I can refocus my attention to some of my previous goals as well as some new ones that I have gained the courage to set. Details of this birth experience and what it has taught me will be available in a book I am currently working on (woo hoo)...now back to "Fascinating Womanhood"!
~Peace
